Initial: Frederick
Profession: Psychology Undergraduate
Birthday: days left
Height: 1.76m
Weight: 63kg
Blood Type: A+
Waist size: 29-30 inches
Hobbies: Blogging; Reading; Songs & Movies; Chill out
Talent: Writing; Acting; Singing; Accents
Favourite Food:
Italian Food;
Kimchi Chigae;
Roti Prata
Most Disliked Food: Anything crustacean - due to allergy
Favourite Songs to Sing to: For You (self-composed) & The Promise
Favourite Body Parts: Nose; Jaws
Schools: Pei Chun Public School (1989 - 1995); Chong Boon Secondary School (1996 - 1999); Nanyang Polytechnic (2000 - 2003); Monash University (2006 - )
Current Pursuit: Bachelor of Behavioural Science
Research Interest: Evolutionary Psychology
Other Interests: Evolution; Genetics
Contact:
frederikan@live.co.uk
February 26, 2007
Have you ever been in a group where people will start looking at you differently especially after you just broke up with somebody?
Have you ever felt that after the break up, they look at you as if you are a sore loser who cannot maintain a relationship well?
Have you ever felt that such people are just plain jerks and critics that start judging you when something hurting that's beyond anyone's control has happened to you?
We don't want it in the first place. And I'm now beginning to detest being in a group of people who knows me so well... we are not just unrelated by blood; but also unrelated by the way we rationalize things. Hence, I've received all kinds of judgments from these people who doesn't even fully understand what I'm going through right now. No, I'm not missing anybody or anyone. No, I'm not putting myself in a state of self-pity just to draw attention from others. No, I'm not torturing myself by rehearsing those good old memories that have passed away. I want to move on. I am moving on. And I want to love someone again.
Is it so hard to just have someone I could related my feelings to? Is it so hard to just have a few dates to get to know people more? C'mon I'm not desperate. I am just slowly looking out for the right person. I enjoy going on dates and I'm not afraid of screwing things up because I'm used to all kinds of shit already. So whatever, it doesn't matter to me any longer. This is me - TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT. So if there's any more things to complain about for some, it is going to be the issue about me being a desperado. I mean.. HELLO...???!!! Are you getting the right person? No, you're not!
After all, who cares what people think about me? I appreciate the kind words from some of my friends.. even advices too, although I'm not very comfortable with the way some people look at me.. as if I CMI (cannot make it). SAY WHAT YOU WANT. THINK WHAT YOU WANT! It's your brain... it's your mouth. I can't do anything else except to kill you, which explains the impossibility of taking any action for eternity.
No wonder my backsliden ex-gf used to say, "Your value goes up when you are attached, more than when you are single." Looks like what she said is coming true for me. But I'm not going to buy this logic, because my value is not determined by anybody.
LISTEN TO ME.
I AM PRICELESS. AND THIS IS HOW GOD SEES ME. I AM OF GREAT VALUE IN HIS EYES.
.. and I'm still waiting for someone to see me the way He does.
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