This is the day I became God's wonderful creation. Time really flies and I'm now a year older. It would be another 365 days before age catches up with me again. Looking back, it's really a tough journey that I've undergone. 23 years of tears, joy and pain.

The rain and storms were over.

Mistakes made.

Lessons learned.

Happiest times enjoyed.

The truest and wonderful moments in my life then, cherished.

I would not say I've succeeded, nor failed terribly to be the man God wants me to be. But I realized that throughout this journey, 23 years of my life, success is not a destination. It is NEVER a destination. I can never get enough of it. Whenever I had a taste of victory, I would taste failures and defeats along with it. So what about the irony of life? I believe that defeats are excellent teachers and success is a puffer - it puffs me up and before I know it, I have to be educated by the Teacher of Life.

I cannot say that I'm totally happy with my life so far. I've had my share of mistakes, regrets and many failures. I wonder how many times must I fail in order to advance to the next level of my life. I wonder how many regrets must I keep in order to learn my lesson well and educate others the similar way, instead of letting them follow my footsteps. I wonder how many mistakes must I make to become a better man. I'm too arrogant, I'm too sure of myself. I'm too short-tempered. I have too many short-comings!

Friends, if you were to know me for 23 years, just like my parents do, you'd not like me. Because I'm not what you see; I'm not what you hear; I'm not what you perceive nor felt... nor understand - my character; my personality; my thoughts; my motto... everything. The man you see me now, is the result of timeless persecutions, anguish, grief, pains, anger and rejections. Yet, the strength that kept me moving on is the strength that I draw not from myself, but from God my Lord. The love that touched me cannot compare with the love is received in this world, but the unconditional love God has showered upon me. The hope I see is the vision that God has given me. The faith I'm holding on to, is the trust I have in God myself. It's all because of HIM that made me alive today. It's all because of HIM I have my second chance to live a life of purpose and destiny. It's in HIM I found the Love; the Strength; the Wisdom; the Courage and the Hope of the Future. Without HIM, I am nothing.

Two years have passed since my official recovery from NHL. The recuperation is slow but I'm doing okay. Woot!~ Three more years before I can truly celebrate the impossibility of any future relapses! Wait.. that's after my graduation too! Hahaha... it's just so great! This blog - I officially declare - will be up as long as I'm still alive and kicking. It was founded during the start of my most terrible moments in my life story; the darkest valley I've ever crossed and that nobody would ever comprehend.

Today's my birthday. It's the time of my life that God will be glorified. I shall renew my vision and move on to achieve my greatest desire for the society. Some birthday resolutions: ~

1. Draw closer to God in daily prayer and experience with Him.

2. Study harder for the Summer (Australian summer), though Distinctions are hardly achievable this semester.

3. Read more books to gain more knowledge of Psychology and the world.

4. Love and cherish my girlfriend more and more each day.

5. Make for friends, hopefully they are more accepting this time.

6. Keep fit by exercising and continuing my tennis lessons.

7. Be a better man (A man by birth, and a man by choice).

Thanks to all my friends and relatives who wished me a Happy Birthday today. I pray that you guyz would be blessed this coming new year as well. The year is ending in less than three months. Whatever things you've screwed up, or murdered, or messed up, this is the time to move on and finish this year with no regrets. The new year will be a better year for all of us, I believe.

God bless ya all!!!