Initial: Frederick
Profession: Psychology Undergraduate
Birthday: days left
Height: 1.76m
Weight: 63kg
Blood Type: A+
Waist size: 29-30 inches
Hobbies: Blogging; Reading; Songs & Movies; Chill out
Talent: Writing; Acting; Singing; Accents
Favourite Food:
Italian Food;
Kimchi Chigae;
Roti Prata
Most Disliked Food: Anything crustacean - due to allergy
Favourite Songs to Sing to: For You (self-composed) & The Promise
Favourite Body Parts: Nose; Jaws
Schools: Pei Chun Public School (1989 - 1995); Chong Boon Secondary School (1996 - 1999); Nanyang Polytechnic (2000 - 2003); Monash University (2006 - )
Current Pursuit: Bachelor of Behavioural Science
Research Interest: Evolutionary Psychology
Other Interests: Evolution; Genetics
Contact:
frederikan@live.co.uk
May 29, 2006
On a night like this, I can't believe I'm stilling blogging. It's passed twelve and my fingers are typing moderately fast on my dusty keyboard for the first time this week. I've been away in search of a cure for my writer's block syndrome. And as I write, my eyes are half closed but my mind is still awake.
Today is the day I'm about to finish submitting all my applications to the private universities I'm applying to. Hopefully, I could be able to get the course I applied for,as my strength lies in the areas of the media, arts and the interest of the state of the mind. Yea, in short, psychology. I couldn't afford to be rejected again as this is a very good last chance for me to prove to myself that I can, once again, do well in my studies and achieve better grades. I am willing to give up everything just for this one chance to study. And I pray, that one of those universities I applied for would give me a chance to do my very best this time round.
I hated myself for making a stupid mistake when I picked the wrong course after my 'O' Levels. It was a serious case of stupidity and ignorance on my part. Back then, I was like a child, dependent and indecisive. I have no goals, no visions, no dreams and worse, no drive. I thought I had it all when I graduated happily as an 'O' Level student, who's top the class and held the position of a headprefect in school. I was very wrong and pride ate itself into my heart. I thought I could handle the poly courses and I placed those that have higher prospects on the first few choices - IT, Business Informatics, Mechatronics Engineering... etc. Respectively.
I thought that by completing a course and graduating with a Diploma will guarantee a spot for me in the society. Very naive. Very stupid. Very ignorant. Very childish.
So, I went to my designated poly without a goal, without any expectations, but filled with great pride and thoughts that everything will be okay. First few lessons was okay. Things turned a little awkward later during my second semester of my first year. I was beginning to feel lost and was struggling with my modules and projects. I lost heart in my studies and thought that if only I could choose a path for myself again, I'd choose something that interests me, not something I think will get me somewhere in the future.
Engineering is not ME. I don't see myself being so mathematical and logical. Robots or machines don't really appeal to me. I use them, but I can't be bothered to learn about them. Besides, I'm not a maths person.
Business? I don't know. Perhaps I could be too honest at times and therefore this is not my area of profession. I can think out of the box, but I can't bring myself to beat about the bush all the time. Naturally, I like being straightforward and blunt. Take it or leave it is my motto.
IT? The bubble has burst for this industry. It is super saturated. I don't mind picking up some skills from there - for instance, Flash and Dreamweaver. But a course in IT won't take me that far I'm sure. It'll be super competitive.
Design? I love design. I like being creative and providing ideas for people. Too bad I wasn't an art student from any art colleges, just a mere diploma holder from an Engineering faculty. But even so, given a chance to do this course will not take me anywhere either. It will take me overseas! I can't go overseas. My doctors are all based here, my friends are here, my family is here, my girlfriend is here... and most importantly, my purpose is here. There's no purpose for me overseas. Not at this very moment.
Communications, medias, arts, writing... psychology and socialogy.. arh.. at last, I think I've found something I can learn with all my heart. Cultures and languages are my forte, psychology is my interest, humanities are my strengths, and writing is my hobby. And since God has given me a seed of potentials way from the beginning when He created me, I should use these seeds of talents and gifts fruitfully and share them with others around me.
The marketplace has 5 pillars - Business, Education, Government, Arts and Media.
Media seems feasible and a likely area for me to sow whatever I've got. My goal is to be a source of positive influence to others and I want to be remembered as a person of great generosity who will touch the lives of many.
My deepest desire right now is to get a degree on the course I'm interested in doing. I want to graduate with a degree and continue to upgrade myself till the day I give up my soul. God, please grant my deepest prayers and desires for this one and only chance I have. This may mean nothing to others who's grades are far better than mine, who's qualifications exceeded mine, who's achievements far succeeded mine. But to me, this.. is my last stand.
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