Initial: Frederick
Profession: Psychology Undergraduate
Birthday: days left
Height: 1.76m
Weight: 63kg
Blood Type: A+
Waist size: 29-30 inches
Hobbies: Blogging; Reading; Songs & Movies; Chill out
Talent: Writing; Acting; Singing; Accents
Favourite Food:
Italian Food;
Kimchi Chigae;
Roti Prata
Most Disliked Food: Anything crustacean - due to allergy
Favourite Songs to Sing to: For You (self-composed) & The Promise
Favourite Body Parts: Nose; Jaws
Schools: Pei Chun Public School (1989 - 1995); Chong Boon Secondary School (1996 - 1999); Nanyang Polytechnic (2000 - 2003); Monash University (2006 - )
Current Pursuit: Bachelor of Behavioural Science
Research Interest: Evolutionary Psychology
Other Interests: Evolution; Genetics
Contact:
frederikan@live.co.uk
May 14, 2006
I've been having a bad time recently as I was rejected again by some institution that will open my path into making a difference. You know, whenever you have an intention in doing what's right, something will just stop you right there and drag you into a sphere of hate, vengeance, depression, anguish, fear and disillusions. I wasn't spared either. And you're next. Trust me. This disease is contagious; it's satanic.
However, I'm not letting this disappointment affect me just yet. But meanwhile, I'm a little tired after researching about my dream course since this morning, also, uncertain if I could be accepted again. Deep inside, I'd really REALLY like to study again. It's my interest to go back to the books ever since my passing out of the Army life. But the joy of the Lord never fails to lift me up from all these burdens. I'm cramped up, I'm down, I'm anxious, I'm desperate, I'm remorseful... but all these, I cast them all onto the Cross - the best gift I received when someone exchanged His life for my sake.
I'm not consoling myself. There is nothing to console myself with.
Absolutely nothing.
Trying to console myself is just like trying in vain to give myself comfort, which my own troubled heart is too handicapped to do so. Even if I succeed, I'd realize that I am actually dodging my reality.
I'm not turning to anyone. No. Not even the closest to me.
Trying to get comfort from people is not going help either. The peace is just not there. My focus will be distracted towards feeling for them. I will become sensitive to their needs as well.
People need each other. But people don't need full comfort from each other. The reality is that if you make a mess, you have to clean your own mess. Babies are an exception.
And if I reject consolation from myself and from people, you'd think I'll die.
Die of what? Of stress and dissatisfaction.
Nevertheless, the good news is that I was holding on, and still am, to the hope that's been conceived within me. What's more was that, I've come to realize that the only way to receive contentment, comfort and joy was not through people alone. It's by acknowledging that God will supply all these in times of our desperation and needs. Comfort is what I can receive when I seek for it in the Lord.
Well, I believe things happen for a reason. God's reasons always hold the best intentions for me. My life is, after all, in His hands. He can tear me apart anytime, however way He wants it. But He'll never do that. He loves me too much to ever put me into any circumstances I cannot bear nor handle. I'll be an overcomer and to do His will.
I was reading through some help lines from the internet this evening and I happen to come across some so called helpful tips on how to live the life you wanted. Well, in the secular world, this is how it is illustrated: -
For instance...10 ways to create the life YOU want: Listen to YOUR body and spirit; operate more fully from intuition.
Improve SELF-care.
Design environments that nourish and support YOU.
Improve the quality of YOUR energy sources.
Identify and clarify YOUR core values.
Honor YOUR values throughout your whole life.
Learn to use YOUR feelings to help YOU manifest what YOU want.
Let go of SELF-limiting beliefs.
Learn to live in harmony with UNIVERSAL PRINCIPLES.
Hire a coach to hold YOUR agenda and facilitate YOUR process.
You see, these summarized tips are highlighted with countless keywords. What are they? Go see for yourself.
It's "you", "your", "you-niversal principles" and "self".
In reverse, it's all talking about ME, ME, MINE, MYSELF, MY OWN... I, I, I... yada yada..
I just couldn't get the fact that we should mind our business more than others. Is this world ALL about ourselves and no one else except ourselves? Is improving only our SELF the only key to success and happiness?
Maybe we should just be interested in other people, and putting them first above us. Then and only then, we can be able receive satisfaction and that's living the life you should live.
Think about it.
Let me just re-sketch out 10 ways a Christian should live a life of Happiness:
Listen to what God has to say when praying; depend more on the Holy Spirit.
Cast all cares upon Him, and put Him first above yourself.
Be around people of positive influence and of great moral support.
Take care of your health and sleep well.
Adopt biblical values and work on Character.
Honour your words. Your word is your bond. Never make empty promises.
Learn to walk by faith and trust in the Lord.
Nothing is impossible with God, and thus the mind needs to be renewed.
Always try to see people in their perspective. Seek to understand rather than to be understood.
Get a mentor. If not, get a friend (and I mean real friend).
Well this one makes more sense. Lesser "you" and "your". More on principles and advices. How's that?
In fact, you may thought that happiness is easy to achieve. It isn't despite God's existance. It needs constant effort and daily pursuit.
And don't you think that making an impact in someone's life would bring you satisfaction and fulfillment, instead of seeking for self-improvement in vain?
Think about it.
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