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The impression forces itself upon one that men measure by false standards,
that everyone seeks power, success, riches for himself, and admires others
who attain them, while undervaluing the truly precious thing in life.
~ Sigmund Freud
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Initial: Frederick
Profession: Psychology Undergraduate
Birthday: days left
Height: 1.76m
Weight: 63kg
Blood Type: A+
Waist size: 29-30 inches
Hobbies: Blogging; Reading; Songs & Movies; Chill out
Most Disliked Food: Anything crustacean - due to allergy
Favourite Songs to Sing to: For You (self-composed) & The Promise
Favourite Body Parts: Nose; Jaws
Schools: Pei Chun Public School (1989 - 1995); Chong Boon Secondary School (1996 - 1999); Nanyang Polytechnic (2000 - 2003); Monash University (2006 - )
There was a long hiatus since last week as I had a REAL time at work and just got a first warning from my superior. Alright, so I have to verify orders from now on.. so much of wanting to keep my words on that very day in doing my best in the company. Well, many Singaporean customers are stupid and many foreign customers are assholes! All except me, yea.. and people around me that I know. They're thousand times better than those barbarians outside of my circle of trust.
Anyway, I've long forgotten about that matter. Let go; let live. And I just gotta do better this time and get back my reputation of being reliable and important.
I've bought my darling flowers last week as a valentine's day present since I couldn't afford to give it to her on that very day itself, due to my previous commitment. Those tulips are beautiful aren't they?
9 Tulips = We'll Always Be Together
And officially, Mar 21st became our very own V-Day itself. Haha..
Yesterday was pretty eventful. We went to Sentosa together with my cell group mates and had a great time at the beach. At first I thought it was pretty cloudy so I didn't put on the sun-tan lotion for protection. Little did I know, I was freakin' tanned and my skin turned red today. Man.. I'm like a fried lobster from the pan!
It was really fun although tiring. Played captain ball in the hot afternoon sun, splashed ourselves with sea water, walked around the beach with Xiu Wen's hand in mine... what a wonderful way to spend the weekend, especially with her.
So now, we're thinking of going back there again when we have the time to. In fact, there're still many many things we yet to do together. And I hope we'll stay together for as long as God knows when.
Alright.. time to go get some bites. Be blogging again soon.
March 20, 2006
Spent the morning watching MVs. And as usual, I'll never miss out on my favourite band's MVs. Fly to the Sky that is. And their latest MVs are quite puzzling.. after watching the two of them, I could hardly guess the meaning behind them. It still remained mysterious to me till now.
Here're the MVs with similar story line. Just piece them up together and guess their meanings. Some people do get the whole story. But yours truly still don't.. pretty dense eh? I don't know but, if you have any idea what the plot is, please E-mail me and tell me.
Namja Dabge ???? - Like A Man
Pi ? (?) - Blood
Enjoy!
March 18, 2006
Your Birthdate: October 5
You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others. Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy. Progressive and original, you're usually thinking up cutting edge ideas. Quick witted and fast thinking, you have difficulty finding new challenges.
Indeed.. I'm feeling sick right now. I guess I've overstrained myself a little during my exercise regime. So I've decided to take a short break of a week or two to recooperate my strength and energy. Meanwhile, I'll still be working.
Work sucks. Who can deny this further? I'd be the last to. And right now, loads are getting heavier at work. And next week, I'll be put into multi-tasking situations.. which, I'm never the type of guy who can do two tasks at one time. Neither can I pee and shit all at the same time, unless it's diarrhoea.
Anyway.. I just went for a teaching seminar hosted by the NIE to see what's install for teaching as a career. It's pretty enriching for me I would say although I already, somewhat, knew about the criterias and expectations of what it takes in being a teacher. It's really exciting and it got me excited too. So, I'd probably give it a shot again next year if my application didn't get through this year, since I just applied and the application for Diploma holders has just closed.
Never mind. There's always time to upgrade myself. What's really amusing about this seminar is there're hundreds of people of different backgrounds and personalities.
What shocked me was when the lady in front of me suddenly spoke into her phone loudly when it rang. I mean, give us all a break man, if you need to talk, go outside and stop whining over the phone so loud! She's disturbing our attention on the speaker. That's so rude!
Furthermore, when it comes to the Question & Answer session, that lady was the first to ask her questions. And it was a stupid question. And that's not all, she kept walking to the microphone but her regular attempts failed. C'mon, give others a chance to ask their questions man.
Let me see.. what else this wierdo did. Oh yeah, and her handphone isn't switched off. How rude and inconsiderate! And for this type of people to become teachers is a REAL disgrace and embarrassment to the nation. I hope she gets rejected man, if not, I'm going on strike.
Shucks! How unfair meritocracy is, that sometimes nerds get the upper hand and the talented & passionate ones with mediocre grades are second out.
I can't imagine nerds wearing two bars on his shoulders fighting a war in future. Neither can I imagine nerds being professors in universities specializing in sleeperology lessons; nor nerds planning tourist attractions and closing them down one by one.. (where's tang dynasty? where's Haw Par Villa? where's Jurong Crocodile Farm?) Never mind about them though, they aren't as interesting either. I guess it's time to let those talented people prove their worth, rather than judging on their grades!
Talking about tourist attractions, they've to be exciting and interesting, letting people, even the locals going back for more. Not places like pathetic Orchard Road, Suntec City, or Raffles Place. Those are nothing but shops and there's no point going there unless there're something to buy. Other than going to those places, there're sports to play such as football, basketball, snooker, bowling, hockey.. etc. Well those are good but don't you get sick of it after a while?
The problem with this miserable island is that there're absolutely NOTHING we can do except sports and recreations. I don't know man. But this is just my opinion so far. If there're anybody who has any ideas on doing anything interesting here in Singapore, please drop me an E-mail. And do not forget to tell me a bit of yourself. Thanks.
Back to topic. Yea.. nerds. I hate nerds. I've never seen anyone of them sweeping the roads before. So if you've seen one, please E-mail me as well to rebuke me of my ignorance. Thank you very much. Otherwise, I would like to speak up for all the talented people around. You guys are great! Better than the acedemically brilliant nerds. Of course, that'll still depend on each of our personality and the way we carry ourselves.
I'm still in the middle of my journey in discovering my potentials and talents. I've found some though, but I'm not satisfied. I believe there's more that I can do to unleash myself to my maximum. Thank God for a wonderful girlfriend who sees the potentials in me and believes in me. This really gives me the courage and strength to pursue my purpose.
Xiu Wen, Sarang Hae..
March 17, 2006
I woke up today from a dream beyond my imagination. It was quite dreadful though. My girlfriend's dad was sort of questioning me in my dream. !!! I mean this could only happen like.. how many years from now? Duh...
And I had nothing to do after shower so I sat and tried on my virtual coloured contact lenses. Due to my sensitive eyes, I couldn't afford to put on contact lens physically. However, this situation is cyberly acceptable.
Here're some of those coloured lenses I've tried on..
Blue Eye
Brown Eye
Green Eye
Grey Eye
Red Eye.. like Darth Maul's. Evil...
Yellow Eye.. or should I call it, Golden Eye.
Purple Eye.. this is ultra rare.
And now.. back to my dark eye.
You can now see how many varieties of coloured lenses I can choose to beautify my eyes. Oh how I wish my eyes aren't that sensitive...
And furthermore, while I was doing the colouring, my aunt came to my house and she blessed my sister and I each $20. Praise be onto God! And I suddenly remembered I gave five bucks for the cell group's offering yesterday and today I received four folds! But I doubt this blessing would end here.. let's see what happen next.
Anyway, I'm going to work already. Ciao!
March 15, 2006
Have you ever heard of people saying that Singaporeans are really conscious of what they put in their mouths?
The fact is, these sayings are bullshit. Maybe not at all, but somehow it has some truth in it. The truth is, many of them are conscious of nothing except the price of the food and how long it takes to reach their stomach.
I was out with my girlfriend this evening for dinner at a hawker centre in Bedok, where we feed our pathetically famished stomachs. There, I chanced upon a Western Food store, which looked pretty good - 'cos the food looked good at first sight.
What really shocked me later was when I ordered a Chicken Chop for myself. The chicken was slightly overcooked at certain portions, as there were lots of black stuffs sticking out of many areas of the chicken thigh. This store is definitely going to be boycotted by me and I swear never to eat from this acursed store ever again. I had a hard time removing those black overcooked parts as eating them heightens the risk of contracting cancer.
Alright, here's the gist of what's about to come. Fastern your seat belts people! Here goes...
After we finished our dinner, the store vendals came over to clear up the table we were seated at. It was a middle-aged lady, or should I sayAh Soh - a local term used to describe a middle-aged lady who's loud. As she was cleaning my side of the table, she saw those black pieces of leftovers on the table and sort of made some comments about me wasting food. *raises eyebrows* I mean, seriously, who would wanna eat those black stuffs?
So, this was what I told her. "There're lots of black stuffs on the chicken. You can't eat those. It's bad for your health."
And she was like, "Huh?" or sorta like giving me that DUH expression on her face.
So I repeated myself, "You can't eat them. They're not healthy."
She still did not get the whole idea until my girlfriend started to tell her that those black stuffs could cause cancer.
And you know what? She was like... "Oh really? Okie.." And then walked off.
She didn't even have a clue of what goes into her damn mouth!
That's really sad.. You know, each one of you Singaporean needs to get educated in the area of nutrition, not just sex alone for Christ's sake! We need to love our own body and life man.. it's the only one gift God ever gave to us.
I learned my lesson. In fact, I was like many of those Singpaporeans who are ignorant about what goes into their mouths. It was until I was robbed by a physical health knock-out, before I finally realised that it's very important to know what we are putting into our body system.
Haiz.. why can't some people ever get to learn to love themselves deeper? Sad world this is...
March 07, 2006
Time to look forward to a new beginning.
After so much has happened. I no longer have the habit to stay long facing the computer screen, nor talking through my web-cam via the MSN. Everything seems to be rather quiet for a while. This is somewhat the downer time of my life, but not the downest. Because I've got Jesus and more than enough strength to bring me to the next level in life.
I met up with the girl of my dreams today for a date. We've been together for a few days and it was wonderful. The date was simple but yet it's not the places nor the things we do. But it's just her, and she alone is more than enough to make my day. Honestly, we really enjoyed ourselves despite the miserable island's lack of sight-seeings and sucky weather. And most of all, we love each other very much.
She is now my girlfriend.
It's a great transition in my love life.. more like a quick one. Some of you may think I'm lucky that lady luck is on my side this time round. Some of you may envy my charm and my self-confidence. Nevertheless, I too, learned things the hard way, and breaking up with someone is never an easy thing to do. I felt terrible, guilty and heart-broken because I know how being hurt feels like and I'm sad as the past good memories are locked forever in my heart, never to be released again. I cried for hours after the whole dreadful incident. My friend was there for me, so was my current girlfriend. I felt like I'm seperated into two and one part of me is crestfallen and the other is joyful as I've found a new love.
However, I pray that my heart will be healed fully again. And I'm very grateful that my current girlfriend is now here for me whenever I'm feeling down and discouraged. She has been very supportive and understanding.
Darling, you know who you are. I'll do my best to be strong and pick myself up from this situation. As from now on, all I wanna do, is to continue to love you for as long as I can; and as long as I can live.
Xiu Wen, I love you.
Well, I think it's time to move on and start caring for people who really cares for me. Time to learn from my past mistakes and continue to gear myself towards the next level of my life, and start working towards a brighter future!
Everything has a beginning, which begins with an ending. Every farewell is the prelude of the next rendezvous. But no matter what, love is still eternal.
March 05, 2006
Well, time has come to an end of another phase in my life - My love life. It is quite inevitable and I guess it should be the best way out for both of us.
Wendy and I broke up.
For once in my entire life, I've never felt so terrible and heart-broken even if I'm the one initiating the break. However, life still goes on and hopefully, the path I've chosen is not a wrong one.
Wendy, I hope you can get over this as fast as you can. I believe that if fate allows us to meet again someday, we will. You've brought me happiness and joy. But there're too much to take for the both of us being apart most of the time. I guess, we both needed some time to find our own happiness.
I'll not forget you in this lifetime because after so much we've gone through together, we have been happy despite those ups and downs. Just want to let you know that I do cherish you... but maybe fate is not with us right now.
Goodbye.
March 02, 2006
Had a great day yesterday and today, I went for cell group as usual. But this cell group wasn't the same like any other days. It's a little different.. especially the ice breaker.
And recently, our church is holding a Spelling Bee contest whereby contestants have to spell out different words. And those words are not simple. So the champion of this contest will be the one who could spell the most words.
So in this cell group, we had this mini-game also called the Spelling Bee. There're about ten words, and the winner will get a small little price. And nobody scored 5 out of 10... not mentioning 6 or 7.. and what's my score?
4 out of 10.
And yes. I'm the only winner. And my price?
Four pieces of ferrero rochers..
It's sort of a consolation though.
And, I took this picture on the first of March at the Esplanade. My focus was originally the Merlion, but my handphone camera's zoom kinda sucks, so it turned out to be a bigger picture in the end. Nevertheless, this still looks good.
March 01, 2006
It's a brand new day today. And as I sat typing this entry, it's already pass midnight. I just got home from work few hours back and I was feeling tired physically but then at the same time my heart was on fire. Man, it's a different feeling altogether. It's like you've never felt so energetic all of a sudden. And when I got home, I got this home sleepless syndrome that's creeping me, even right now. I couldn't really sleep and I've just drank a cup of tea and ate some soft-cakes.
Anyway, this week is my work week again. I'll be pretty busy with my work and stuffs including meeting people, cell group and service as usual.. yea. I maybe taking up relief teaching pretty soon to see what it's like. These days have been pretty monotonous for me though with some exception of excitements and activities..
Hehehe.. well, it's a great month to start with. So this month is probably gonna be finding a new working atmosphere, getting a PDL licence and try improving my mandarin..
To start with - YEA.. this applies to ALL A Level students... your results are to be released TODAY!! Yes. Today. No kidding. And I'm here wishing ALL of you guys and gals the best for all your upcoming results. May you guyz score well with flying colours and get to where you wanna get to!
Well that's it, I think I'm retiring for the night. Good night people. I'm wasted. Hahaha..
