November 28, 2005
I've just returned from camp a while agowith mixed moods. I knew I shouldn't be feeling this way but I was overwhelmed with two or maybe, two and a half emotions at one go. I was feeling happy - that's one; anxious - that's two; tired - that's the half.
I've finally reached the end of all my duties set before me months ago. Time flashed by and here I am, just completed every single one of them faithfully. I am happy and now I shall retire from all those shits that I have to go through, and one of them is sleeping in that third-graded place. Thankfully, I'm Pes E1L9. So there's no reservice for me, and I'll live a life of a civilian for a long long time. Praise God for that good life.
I'm also anxious about what to do next. I need to find a job and upgrade myself as well. The local University is beyond my league but I'll still try. I really need a miracle, and from what pastor said last Saturday, my miracle is not so far away but rather it's something within my grasp. Jees.. It's so thought-provoking and I hate it!
It seems hard to keep myself away from all these anxieties I have, but oh well, I'll just have to keep focusing on how to end this year well first. Why? Some of you may ask me. I mean, come on, the year's ending. Christmas is coming. And then the New Year will arrive. If we don't start focusing on ending this year with some fruitfullness and meaning, our New Year will be just as boring as anyone would expect. I expect a great Christmas coming up, a romantic Birthday sensation with my darling, and a Great Hot New Year to arrive next year. So now I'm working on how to really enjoy myself at this year end, and enjoy it to the fullest, so that the New Year would be enjoyable to me as well.
I'm worn out as for today. I need a break at home at least for today. I was really stunned when I learned that all the air-cons in my camp's office aren't working at all when I arrived yesterday morning. Goodness me, the entire day I became a huge banquet for mosquitoes. And oh, my camp now is undergoing some sort of a wash-over. White paints are all over the walls and difusing smell of thinner were everywhere. Notice boards and picture frames were taken down, paint brushes were strewn all over the place and the paints were all hard and dry. Worse, it's a Sunday! No one's working! And dust was every breath you take.
Okay, so this was my last day of duty working in such a condition. Great..
just great. And what seemed to be so cooling a day was, the night was HORRIBLE!! It was freakin' hot! But a few of us managed to find an air-conditioned room next door to sleep in for the night. There, the smell of thinner still lingers in the room but what the heck.. it's just for one night, better than sleeping without a cool air.
Sometimes, I wish that Singapore would build a crystal ball all over the island - Some sort of a "whether shield" that dispenses only snow and icy wind. It's getting freakingly hot during the day at times and very humid at night these days, even during a wet season like this. Occasionally, I feel that I could die with a whether like this! Speaking of expats coming here for the sun... Oh yea, you expats really love the tropical climate here. Well, let me tell you the Dark Side of this climate. It rots your skin more and you'll age faster. This is the region where fungus grow and bacteria feeds like hungry piranas. The moment you die, your body will be eaten up within 2 days. As for a living being, your skin will rot within minutes without you putting on cooling facial wash every morning and night. Yucks! TROPICAL CLIMATE JUST SUCKS!
If ever I got the chance to go Siberia to have a stay in one of those cottages, that would be a REAL treat! And lo, I've seen snow, played with snow and lived with snow before alright. So don't think I'm speaking like I've never been to the freezing north. Cos I think that the cold and icy whether is my favourite still. That is where I wanted to live in once I retire at an old age - A cottage in the cold north? Perhaps.
Oh well... guess I'll reutrn again when my eyes are feeling a little better.
November 26, 2005
I finally got to blog today. All thanks to the fault of my PC. It's giving me problems again! Urgh.. and I've gotta get it fixed by Monday. It's blinking as I speak. Videos can't be played properly and all my media players kinda suck now. Haiz... I wonder why Microsoft is so sucky. But, well, we are the suckers for computer and without them, we are nothing. *shrugs*
This won't be a long entry anyway, since my computer's current life is so short. I'm gonna reformat it perhaps, or maybe doing something else to it. Anyway.. back to topic. I'm beginning to look back at those days I had right now. I'm starting to feel nostalgic already. Ever since the day I received treatments till the days I spent in camp with my bunk mates, they're all in my mind, unerased and, it's all over now.
Tomorrow I'll be going back to camp for the very last time before I return once more on 20th Dec this year to be promoted to a civilian. And yes, tomorrow will be my very last duty of my NS life. This Civilian Conversion Course will end right there and then - on Monday of course. I'm finally free, after two years and four months of slavery. Thankfully, due to my health condition, I'm not allowed to go for reservice in the future, which is a good thing! I would have more time on my own.
But there's one problem. Jobs. Yes. I want to teach, but I'm not sure if I can be accepted into such vocation. There's a great demand for this job, at the same time, there're great applicants for it. Education is getting more and more important these days. And teachers are soaring in high demands. I'm not sure if I'm up for it. Oh God, what do you think?
I'm planning to find a temporary job for some extra income before moving into relief teaching somewhere next year. I have five to six years to stabalize myself and my income. And often I feel that time is catching up on me. Time is fading - slowly. And my days are crucially numbered. If I don't act fast now, my fate will be sealed and I'll lose everything completely. And then, where will God be?
November 24, 2005
I almost forgot what day today is. It's Thanksgiving Day! Just in case you people don't know what's this festival's all about, here's some definitions to enlighten you:
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia ~~~
Thanksgiving, or
Thanksgiving Day, is an annual holiday observed in the United States and Canada. In the U.S., the holiday is celebrated on the fourth Thursday in November. In Canada, where the harvest generally ends earlier in the year, the holiday is celebrated on the second Monday in October.
All thanks to this definition found here in this link: -
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thanksgiving
Alright, I'm not an American, neither am I a Canadian. But almost every year, my family would celebrate Thanksgiving - OUR thanksgiving - and yes, including the turkeys. Although we don't really celebrate it, but it always happens around this time of the year, I think. *shrugs*
I've got no clear idea of how you westerners celebrate this season these days, but this time round for me, turkeys are now out of the picture. Let me present to you what's for dinner tonight...
CURRY CHICKEN!!!
We've got curry chicken wrapped inside one of those bags; crackers in the same bag as well as the gravy. Besides, we've got the french loaves too.
Yummy.. chicken coated with curry; some cloves to spice it up; plus, some crakers to go along with the curry waiting for me outside my study.
And within minutes.. the chicken's gone, together with the crackers from the plate.
Another helping? Yea.. sure.
I'm coughing a little as I speak here. Man, I gotta agree with you, it's gonna rip my throat off my neck! And I've just had bottles of water to go along this heavy feast I had. *Burp*
Alright, I need take a rest now. Till my voice recovers... 'll be here soon.
Bardic Circle 3 is a new look given to my blog after long considerations and planning. Ever since I received comments that I should improve on certain aspects of my style, I've gladly accepted some, including criticisms.
This new theme renaissance is given to this new Bardic Circle and it has a variety of meanings. My blog has come to a stage whereby I can now look back at some fond memories of the past. Furthermore, I've decided to make this a photoblog as well, as I'm about to take more pictures than before.
I'm looking forward to have many more exciting events coming my way. And I'm also out to look for more fun and entertainment. hehehe...
Stay tuned. I'll be back soon! ;-p
